-1:50 AM

for those who care, relink me. i have moved to
http://abs0lute-zer0.blogspot.com


-10:37 PM

man its been so long since i've last updated my blog! but now im back with one helluva long post.

lets start with orientation 2 :D
just as expected, i ended up with an OG with half of the people there sian-ed and nobody wanted to cheer or whatever. like... SIAN LAR! hahhas...
1st thought i had when i saw my OG, i thought i was in assyria! like, omg la... then turns out im in persia! woot! then found out that wai kit exact same clan as me too! woot x2! then walk over there, siti was right beside my clan, raja n xiao fen same clan as us, and elisa is OGL for persians too! woot x 1000. =X
okay... so i tried my way of getting people enthu. LEAD THE CHEERS MYSELF! hahhas. didnt work out as planned, i forgot the persians main cheer on the very 1st time i lead -.- like so malu can.... at least siti raja xiao fen and sheralin heard my power =x and they still thought i was the shy shy nv do anything type -.- bleahh.
O2 was nothing compared to O1, as the activities are more boring... but still we had fun, and made alot of new friends... speaking of friends.... STUPID WAI KIT. he was telling the girls that xinyi was his sister (which isnt the case, its just that her bro is called wai kit too). but they thought wai kit was pointing at me... so now xin jie xinyi and farah calling me sister -.- wthhhh. Lols.
through out the whole orientation, persians were always losing out in terms of points, but we managed to win the final performance, and almost achieved a 2nd place =/ too bad. WE HAVE WON THE WAR! WE HAVE WON THE WAR! WE HAVE WON THE WAR! SAB SAB SHINGGG! so high after the orientation lahhs.

Parthians JAE Orientation Season 2 2008. Ryan(green shirt) looks small sized in this pic =x

after this, the ex-cuycusa people met up for a photo! too bad raja left alr... hahhas

ugh my hair -.- dont look at it -.-
left to right : bernadine, xiaofen, me, dominic, waikit, and elisa (green shirt)

then met up with shir afterwards for supper =x miss u dear =( sorry we could only meet for a short while...

JAE IJC Term 1 Week 9

man the timetable is HELL. for the 2nd intake ppl anyway... everyday 5+ go home sia... nyjc there still slacking lor... hahhas. bought my graphic calculator alr... it looks like a tv remote can... and its so friggin hard to manipulate la... wan find the factorial sign also must go thru a few menus to find it -.- looks like i have to bring my scientific calc along with me liaos. or else i tests die sia. speaking of tests.... 1st week we got 2 tests alr la -.- and its not even through the 1st week yet. i wonder what will the chem tchrs do to us tmr lors. sians. and the geog notes are FRIGGIN thick and heavy -.-

on the bright side, 0812E now has more people again! our old clique from 9 ppl dropped to 5 ppl, now back to around 7 ppl =x sheralin, camarine, siti, xiaofen, huiping, gerard, hiro, shawn and me.
sheralin gerard hiro n shawn left, and 2 new girls joined. o.o hellos hellos. charlotte n jeslyn. had fun n laughter alr... HEY WAIT. im the only guy left in the clique. dots -.-

went out with corine and kaijia on tuesday. been long since i last saw them. met them in AMK hub. ate suki sushi :D


hahhas. around 18 plates only la. hope we can go out more often =x more sushi!!

HuiPing's birthday!!


hahhas, heres the cake! gerard n sheralin came from home, bought the cake, and came all the way back to IJC for huiping's birthday =x so sweeeeet. hahhas
it was real hectic during our lunch break, as we tried to discuss things and do things behind her back. then we found out that they had no lighter or tissues for the cake o.o luckily we called Mr Ang to come down n give us a lighter, and luckily gerard thought of going to macdonalds and kope their tissues. hahhas!


huiping infront of the cake, with sheralin and camarine(half of her) beside
guess what? they had no knife for the cake -.-
and they went to the canteen vendors to borrow...

this -.- hellos, we need a knife, not a parang. hahhas

hold properly cann -.- u scared u accidentaly poke someone issit. dots

hahhas birthday girl kena cream by us =x thanks to me gerard n sheralin =x
we then proceeded to take our class and clique photos! camera phobia soon-.- hahhas

me n huiping

ex 0812E minus Fook Tak, Shawn, Hiro, and many more.

shoes and slipper. guess who wore the slipper? =x

hope these fun n peaceful days would last forever =/
i love you dear dear shirleen =x sorry for the things that i have done which have made you angry or sad =/ know that no matter what, i still will love you =)
59days and counting


-9:12 PM

today's the 1 mth anniversary for us :x dunno where to start, so i shall start from this morning~ bleahh

school started ok... GP lect was boring at 1st, but somehow, the lecture became entertaining towards the end. nice pics perhaps? :x
PE is the same as always. We had basketball today... I like bball, but i totally suck at it. bahh. joined in the captain's ball match with the girls cos they were handicapped by 2 ppl. hahhas.
MAN i HATE the long queues! stand and wait, wait, wait... i wanna eat asap >< blah =".="> corine, germaine, bernadine, xiao fen, qian ning, zack, daniel, dominic, raja, waikit and to the rest that i have not caught your name =/ im gonna miss you guys, especially corine germaine n kaijia, even tho shes not in the OG. LOL :x
walking to chem was SOOO funny! Hiro sorta injured his right foot, so he couldnt walk properly. the whole class was imitating his limping from canteen to lab! LOL :x chem is interesting, sorta. the work is kinda fun, even tho i dont actually like doing work >.<>>
1. should i take H2 geog instead of H2 chem/physics? man... its a tough choice...
2. i really think i'll miss the trio. hope we still can remain as good friends =/
3. all hell will break loose soon... JAE in 2-3weeks!!! ROARRRR
4. i hope orientation 2 will be fun! hope i dun get those lame nerds that dont cheer or have fun in my OG. hahhas
5. when will i get permission to do what i want? im old enough already, hello~ reality check pls.
6. did i make the right choice in choosing JC over poly? haisss...
7. i need to improve on my snooker skill... pool is nothing like snooker. rahh

bleahh... on to what happened after sch! =x
ran to causeway point to meet corine immediately after sch. needed help on what flower to buy :x in the end, she was in the toilet while i chose the flower myself. bleahh.
after that. took train down to tampines to meet her! she was like, shocked la. lol :x
walked around tmall to look look see see, and ended up in cafe cartel for dinner!
ordered this, and we shared it

ate some icecream~

then took some photos =x

man, im not photogenic at all... bleahh
walked around again, then its time to leave again =/ oh well...

i love you shirleen! <3
32 days and counting~


-11:14 AM

O lvl results are out. man... one scary day =x

Eng : B3 :o
Comb. Humans : D7 :D
E Math : A1! :D
A Math : A2 :)
Physics : A2 :)
Chemistry : B3 >.<
Geog : B3 :o

L1B4 : 11
L1R5 : 14

kinda unexpected... i was hoping for a 7-9 or a 18-20
but... i cant really do anything with 14 pts. cant go with my friends, staying in IJC seems abit crazy with 11 pts (after deduction)
hais...
dun wanna talk about O lvl results... sadded

been out alot with shir. so fun when she came over!! bleahh =x going ot her house on the 5th. will be looking forward for it! *pokes*

doing this at home, so i'll upload e photos when im home. bye all!
i love you dear <3

29 n counting~


-10:56 PM

and... another week of JC life is over...
man its exhausting... i really wish i get 21 points so i dont have to suffer this much. rahhh

it has been pretty uneventful for the past days... school > maple > sleep > wake up > school
rahhh... so tired...

went out with shir again today :D many things happened :D

1st day : 31/12/07
12th day : 11/1/07
19th day : 18/1/07

these days i will remember forever :x
i love you shir

19days and counting


-8:07 PM

hahs... who knows when will this peaceful period will end? definitely when PAE ends, when all my new friends leave... haiz...

this week of school is oh so tough... the p.e is insane, but i think i'll get used to it sooner or later...

O lvl results are coming out soon... im not afraid of the results, but rather, what the release of the results mean...
only a while more till they all leave and im lonely again.

just came back from dinner. guess what



hahhas sushi!! =x kaijia must jealous, she SOOO wants salmon. i'll show her the photo tmr. wahahhas

its been 3 days since i saw her, and i miss her so much T_T
wish i hadnt went for PAE, then i can see her like, everyday? =x
rahh. hope saturday comes around quickly.

and btw dear, if u are happening to read this...
please concentrate on ur studies =/ and dont stress urself too much okies? =x
i dont want you to ruin your studies because of a useless guy

nvm. hahhas

iloveyou~
16days and counting


-10:53 PM

wow long day today. :x super tired now lalalas

dunno how, dunno why, we ended up LOST after lunch la. its like, we retraced our footsteps and still end up in nowhere. took a bus and ended up back in the interchange. hahhas

oh man, i lost my touch in House of the Dead 4 la!! so throw face lor. zz. should have used the $1.40 on DDR :D

raining cats n dogs when going back =x someone keep on almost fall down la -.- get some better slippers pls. hahhas :x

man im hungry =/ *pokes stomach* oh well. nth to blog about le~
bbyes all.
*hugs shir*

13 days and counting


-8:30 PM

well, its already a week of JC life. for those who thought it was going to be easy, you're in for a hell of a experience.
the 1st week's timetable may seem to be slack, but we got our permanent timetable now.
mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. its totally sick. not that i really mind. (3hour break on monday before P.E -.-) oh well, at least the gym is open to all. need to work out :)

just came back from cineleisure..
watched Body #19 with her.
somehow, somewhere along the way, Corine Germaine and KaiJia came along to join us. o.o
*note to self - thai movies are almost impossible to catch the plot, but it sure is hell gruesome and scary =x

meeting her again tomorrow. wish everyday was a weekend =/

iloveyoushir~
12 days and counting



-2:24 PM

FINALLY MY MODEM IS BACK UP N RUNNING!!!
so many things happened! but i forgot le. =x

been out to tampines alot for psp gatherings.
but theres another reason :x

iloveushir :x
8days and counting


-11:46 PM

finally my modem is fixed -.-
can use internet now :D

well, thats it. nothing much to say already
been out alot this past week...

prom nite was intensely fun!
julio kena sabo, and turns out he became the prom king..
after lots of toasts to miko's gayness, we left the school.
sad yet happy occasion. hahhas

chalet was a bang!
40hours straight without sleep... =.=
going topless at the beach during midnite (wont go into much detail =x), wild wild wet was insane, counterstrike at midnite, horror movie, alcohol and drunk ppl... what more could a chalet offer? too bad not enough beds though. hahhas

tired(: talk more some other time

P.S. Happy early birthday ross!


-9:42 PM

dang

1st day after the o lvls, my modem broke!
jeez, what luck.
well anyway, at least i still got my other house at hougang, and my trusty psp. =x

the events coming up are somewhat similar to what had happened b4
past :dining etiquette
post-prelim slack
present : prom night
class chalet
during these events, time will be fast, and life will be hectic but fun.

de ja vu? hahas, perhaps.
wait, that means life after the chalet will be plain as hell.
crap


-12:21 AM

haix... no mood to study, and no mood to play unless im with friends...
been at macs studying with ling, yihuan and chris. dun think i studied much.
time is slowing to a standstill for me... the days are agonizing and the hours drag on forever.
but i know when the o lvls are over, time will speed by so fast i wont even notice its time to start school again (haiz..)

i know my grades took a toll when i started monster hunter...
the amount of time i used to play is very obvious.

before grad service : miko hr-4 5*, shahrin hr-3 5*, zikeng hr-3 5*, me havent started -.-
after grad service : miko hr-5 5*, shahrin hr-4 5*, zikeng hr-4 5*, me hr-1 4*
2 weeks before the O lvls : miko hr-5 5*, shahrin hr-4 5*, zikeng hr-4 5*, me hr-2 5*
NOW : miko HR-6, sharin HR-5, zikeng HR-5, me HR-6 and i killed the "last boss"

dang. if only i invested this time into my studies. 6 A1s much? possible...

Roses & Butterflies <3


-12:05 AM

well, we are reaching the final stretch of the O lvls...
its kinda hectic, yet peaceful arc in my schooling life, contradictory to the fabled rumors of the hair pulling stressful life of an O lvl student.
the only times when i feel the stress is when i am going to be late for the paper =x
maybe its just because i cant seem to study at all? no mood...


guess i'll state the feelings i had for the papers i already had, and those coming up.

physics and chem (SPA) - i know i tried my best, but there is this dreadful and unanimous feeling that we all performed badly for this one.
english oral - dead. said so little... i know im doomed
chinese B oral - *ahem*chineseBisEASY*cough*

week 1-
A maths paper 1 and 2 - here begins the real papers... i thought that a maths would be harder than the prelims. dead WRONG. it was much easier than the prelims, and alot agreed the paper was easy
chem paper 2 - 1st time i know i wont perform badly for chemistry. confident!
geog paper 2 - ehhh... so-so ba... didnt study enough, didnt write enough, but at least i didnt write crap
history - OMG! i didnt study, i wasnt planning to study anyway, i was planning to hand in a blank paper. guess what. i wrote alot. 3 whole pieces of paper (new record!) guess i might actually PASS. if not for SS. lol =/

week 2 -
english paper 1 and 2 - screwed up for paper one. i didnt hit the words requirement... dont think i did well... but paper 2 was okay
maths paper 1 and 2 - full confidence. uber easy.
chinese B listening - quite tough actually... something about children driving lorries and foreigners saying mosquitos are smart
physics paper 2 - tricky paper, but i expected it. the ten year series was very hard, so this year should be no exception. think i did to the best of my abilities though

week 3 (have not happened yet)
social studies - hohoho... didnt study, wont study, but i'll try and write. i dont want an F9 do i
geog paper 1 - i'll study for this. yea i will. geog is my only humanities, and i WILL pull it up

week 4 (so far away T_T)
chinese B paper 1 and 2 - *cough*chineseBisEASY*cough*
chem paper 1 and physics paper 1 - study much, and if i do well, and i see 2 distinctions(hopefully).

expected grades
Eng - C5
A maths - A2
E maths - A1
Chem - A1
Physics - A2
Geog - B3
L1R5 - 14


-11:49 PM

the o levels, begin in 14hours and 41mins...
*heads off to the battlefield*

the pace is too fast
but i'll make sure i'll last till the end



-5:45 PM

today was the last day of school, had the graduation service...
thought it would be boring, but was quite interesting...
halfway through the service, it hit me that this was the last school day i will be in this school...
mixed feelings and broken trains of thought flowing around in my head -.-
got horrendous memories of this school, yet i would miss it...
4 years have come and gone...

oh well. got back the result slip and the international maths quiz cert thing..

Prelim Results -
English - 60% - B4
Add Maths - 60% - B4
E. Maths - 86% (chuckles) - A1
Pure Chemistry - 75% (phew) -A1
Pure Physics - 74% (T_T) - A2
Core Geography - 56% - C5
Combined Humanities (SS&HE) - 29% (LOL) - F9

Overall % - 62.9% (stupid humanities)

L1R4 - 12
L1R5 - 17
Class Position 23/39 (stupid humanities)

guess i need to start studying soon...

Good-Bye halcyon days...



-7:55 PM

receiving prelim results -.-
i shan't post any here yet. wait till i get the full set...
=/


-6:13 PM

dang yesterday was tiring

went to the ZOOOOOO . dots. BORING BORING...
ok la... watch animals not THAT bad... but its still kinda boring.
had fun tho... played swing... wheee~~~ =x

went to causeway at nite for arcade with zq jimmy junqiang samuel n kim
i learnt 2 impt lessons.
1) zombies are never full. they love eating lead alot, regardless of their hunger
2) never feed zombies too long, your hands will shake from fatigue after pumping lead too much
and by pumping lead i hope u know i mean shooting them... hahas

dual wielding SMGs is fun! ^^

but dead beat when i reached home...
fell asleep so fast, but still dead tired this morning...
caught some ZZZs just now, and still tired.
at least i got the weekend infront of me...
*heads to sleep*


-9:52 PM

well, prelims are over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11!11!!11one

finally a chance to relax. at least, for a while before the O lvls begin.
mugging sux... went out to study, but absorbed nothing
i believe the only things that absorbed anything were the brains of the zombies in house of the dead 4.
wonder why dead people like eating lead so much.

oh well. going back to fill more zombies with lead tomorrow. hope i bring enough money


-9:31 PM

well, i haven't posted for a long time...
cos im too caught up with my PSP =X
bought it from jimmy at 300. =X
fun =X

anywayz, got back report card. i got a 19 for my L1R5 o.o
1st time i got under 20 points.
but, its only common test. yah
hope to improve


-3:19 PM

photos courtesy of phillip and some from me too:)
will post more soon
looks small eh the hotel =x

the function room looks small too =\

plain water. uh-huh

"Pan Fried Chicken Breast with Mushroom Sauce (with buttered vegetables and potato wedges"

DESERT! before...
]
and after...

shah x eugene

saman x loy

the PG

2H (2005) boys

top row left to right: miko, irfan, eugene, daryl, vincent, irvin, jundao, phillip, me
btm row left to right: janelle, adeline, eileen, sinyi, hongzhen, tricia, samantha, shuhui, shahrin



-9:52 PM

well, today was fun ^^
luckily, it did not happen as i predicted it will, or else it would be a living nightmare. hahas
what ever that was thought, i already knew. oh well, refreshment course for etiquette then...
the whole affair would have been more fun if we didnt have to go to sch in the morning. sweaty and sticky and what not -.-
and... as expected, everyone was dressed up nicely, with the exception of me and a few others.

will post e photos tmr...


-9:07 PM

tt jundao ar -.- totally tactless... now i think im in deep shit... at least i hope not too deep... man life sux...


-8:34 PM

MAN the haunted house was HOT!
hot i mean literal. burning hot.
no ventilation in a room lined with BLACK garbage bags
yea its hot... but i wont know how hot i really was.
wasnt really there to suffer with everyone...
heard it was fun though.
earned like, 1k? thats alot!
everyone left home late due to clean up... hahas

im in a real dilemma...
i have absolutely no idea of what i should do next... confused.... HELP!!!!

Simple Plan ~ I'm Just A Kid

I woke up it was 7
I waited till 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight...

And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me

What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid [repeat x5]

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world.

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight


-9:17 PM

today was interesting...

turned up in school to find the cca block, the councillor room, and the corridor along them totally and heavily vandalised.
examples are:
mr lim humji
mrs tan prostitute
PHS SUX (i agree with this one)

to be honest, this is an artwork. u'd have to be uber daring and determined to do this, as there was no time for this to have occurced, only after sunday church at night. for the 1st time, the school actually looked COOOOOOL. hahas. heard there was evidence of who did it. what a noob vandal. if it was me, i'd leave no trace, and i would do much much bigger stuffs. guess that guy was prepared to get expelled anyway. there is no moron who would leave trances of their crime lying around.

pretty stress nowadays... dont ask why...


-8:34 PM

happy birthday daryl and happy belated birthday weili

=\

sian.. nth much to post.
had 2 period gaming session during eng when we went to com lab
daryl tio rape during geog
got uber pissed in soccer
tore my pants

yea, i guess thats it.


-9:35 PM

ouch

my ex-gf cut her wrist few days ago.
why?
her bf dumped her (not me)

that really set me thinking

if u get hurt so badly when u get out of a relationship, why get in a relationship at all?

hmmm

when u are not in a relationship, you fear no one will ever love you
when u are in a relationship, you fear that the relationship will break down
when u just get out of a relationship, you want nothing more than to get back in

life is just so unpredictable and intimidating isnt it?

P.S : im not trying to be emo, mind you, what i post comes from my heart, and my mind. too emo for you? why bother reading what i post then?


-10:21 PM

dreaming... dreaming...
i really cant believe i am dreaming...
i can feel the warmth of your hand...
the thrill of the moment...
the look in your eyes...
and its all over, woke up too soon again...
if only dreams can become reality...
its a weird feeling, to have those dreams come back to me, especially after i have given up...
i think... these dreams will only stop... once i actually... hold her hand...


-11:15 PM

miss kang's wedding today !!! o.o
went in the morning with weili and yuting... i thought we were quite earlier, turned out we arrived just in the nick of time o.o
(i sorta realised how uncommon it is for me to go out with the class. i'm totally the odd one out when it comes to the class' fashion sense. they all look so different... the PG dressed cool, the other guys were dressed smart, the girls all looked pretty/cute, except for saman n janelle who dressed very shuai. that leaves me odd one out eh... lol. even vincent looks nice in a normal t-shirt.)
miss kang looked so pretty in a wedding dress (stark contrast to her regular self) =x
her husband... looked quite young, apart from the fact that he was a bit balding =x
went bunk with jimmy after the whole makan + yam seng thing.
quite full, as expected. more audition than expected as well.
oh well, at least played some psp hahas.

PSP ! PSP !!!!!!!!!!!!1!!1!11!!!1one
hope to get a psp nxt CNY. ang bao kin kin lai =x

so long since i posted huh? haix. maybe if more eventful thins happen in my life, i would have more things to post


1st July ~ woke up early chiong maple!!!!! hit lvl 100 after evening

2nd July ~ Youth day thing so no need go sch. woke up early chiong maple!!!!! (yes im no life, thanks very much). hit lvl 104

6th July ~ ThanksGiving cum Honours nite. AND... FYI, 6th july is my birthday... only 4 ppl sorta remembered.. sad.. i went to bunk alone, but wasnt fun at all. hit lvl 107 then wandered plaza sing alone... met up with ross at hougang mall and walked home tgt. thx for ur present ^^

7th July ~ got zak helm!! the only happy thing that happened to me for my bday (which was the day b4...)


my existance is just an insignificant thing.
my life is unimportant, and no one will even notice when this life vanishes
i guess thats why i feel no joy in life...


-10:17 PM

been so long since i posted huh..

i aint got much to say really..

start of term 3 luh... 3months ++ to O lvls...
do i bother? no

doing some homework here n there, but i dont really care. some teachers forget anwyay

today had this "Celebrate Life" seminar. dont bother the lame name. its a career n goal setting workshop more like. teach us how to set our goals (ya, as if we dont know), teached the boys "How to be man" (uh-huh). the painting the pebble thing more fun, mess around with paint. wahahas. daryl n JD made picasso sia... but the layer of paint has got to be 1 cm thick. dun think it will dry anytime soon hehs

tmr same thing again ba... hope can go home earlier. =x

MAPLE>>> lv 93 le. bo priest at dgp can die ._. today so laggy, died so many times, or else gt lv 94 le. summore priest pangseh me go mms =x zakking nxt sat, hven do zak quest yet. shyyyyt




-4:55 AM

im mad...

posting at 5am in the morning...

well... all the better... i dont want to sleep anyway...
xiaoman popped in at 4:30+ with a hmwk question.
only then i realised how FRIGGIN MUCH homework we have >.<

im changing the subject away from why i dont want to sleep huh?
dun wan to say lei
=P


-12:29 AM

i so love to stay up late... but i only can do that on weekends at my parent's house...
if i wanted to do this at my grandparent's house, nag nag nag nag nag >.<

getting extremely boring these days... absolutely nth to do at home de.
wan study also no mood. wan play also no mood.
guess janelle was rite? go out better than stay at home...


hmm... stay up late also abit sian... not many ppl online to talk to...
then if i did talk to someone late nite, i'd have to leave early and pangseh them cos im just so dam tired >.<
(sorry yiwei)

alot of things are happening lately, cant seem to keep up...
is life going too fast?
or am i going too fast to take a look around and see what the heck is happening?
haizz


-10:38 AM

hahas. im so addicted to bleach. abit regret i started watching it. i watched 125 episodes in 4 days -.- hahas


-10:11 PM

well... here are my results

English - 63.6% (B4)
Basic Chinese - 80% (Merit)
Elementary Mathematics - 85.875% (A1)
Additional Mathematics - 37.5% (F9)
Pure Physics - 76% (A1)
Pure Chemistry - 45% (D7)
Core Geography - 61.6% (B4)
Combined Humanities - 30% (F9)

chemistry was devastating... 1st time i failed...
a maths and humans are expected =)

L1R5 - 26
L1R4 - 17
haix...

life - its getting more n more boring and repetitive... in school either watch ppl play cards or join in some times... cher's are always nt here. BORINGG~ want to sleep but cant... leg itchy and tiredness evaporates, but boredom stays ><"

online - xIStarlx is lv 60 now... hitting 4.2k with cider on lupins, 4k on mg. did my 1st 3.7k without cider. training is slowing down... nothing as fast as my 5ho0t1ng5tar... hahas. sin at least 1 day pia 2 lvls. my fighter only 1.5 lvls a day or worse. and my meso situation is getting worse. i owe ross 20m -.-

life sux.


-6:33 PM

just got back my mid year results
all kns except a few...
will post them up tmr when we get back social studies.

haizz


-6:33 PM

exams are over... but i dun really feel happy or relieved...
feels just like any other day...

went woodlands to play soccer today... it was SOOOOOOOOOO hot... SOOOOOOOOOOOOO dam hot... slacked the 1st hour, watching them play with the malay ppl who "insisted" on playing with us. then the old street soccer court was vacated, so we went back. some kids playing there... we played with them. man they were good... at least i didnt let in the penalty nor any of yp's shots (partly cos i only played for 20 mins) hahas


-9:52 PM

she smsed me last nite...

" joseph, after what i've done to you, u're still so nice to me... >.< do you still like me? =\ or have ur feelings faded away?"

i didnt get what that meant... especially since she already has a boyfriend...

do i still have those feelings in me..?

or are the feelings as lost as i am...?

haiz...


-9:03 PM

voices...

in my head...

"Get real... You dont deserve anybody's love"

maybe this voice is correct...


-4:51 PM

well... exams here liao =\ flunked my eng paper 1 -.-
1st time i wrote less than 400 words... usually overshoot like siao de =X
labour day tmr ... SLACK XD
maybe some dota? ya? lolx


-4:22 PM

exams are next week, and im still procrastinating... even stayed back for soccer today =X

stupid voices in my head...
cant get them outta my head...

i'll study hard for the exams ^^ no worries

P.S. OMG Dance got GOLD also!!! ConGratz~~


-7:11 PM




-4:46 PM

Who am I,

that the Lord of all the earth

Would care to know my name

Would care to feel my hurt

Who am I,

that the Bright and Morning Star

Would choose to light the way

For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am

But because of what You've done

Not because of what I've done

But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading

Here today and gone tomorrow

A wave tossed in the ocean

A vapor in the wind

Still You hear me when I'm calling

Lord, You catch me when I'm falling

And You've told me who I am

I am Yours

Who am I,

that the eyes that see my sin

Would look on me with love

and watch me rise again

Who am I,

that the voice that calmed the sea

Would call out through the rain

And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am

But because of what You've done

Not because of what I've done

But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading

Here today and gone tomorrow

A wave tossed in the ocean

A vapor in the wind

Still You hear me when I'm calling

Lord, You catch me when I'm falling

And You've told me who I am

I am Yours,

I am Yours

I am Yours

Whom shall I fear

Whom shall I fear

'Cause I am Yours

I am Yours

today's chapel was... interesting... kinda related to what im going through...

"Spice, you got a girlfriend?"
"您有女朋友？"

what...?
is it so hard to believe that i had a girlfriend?
or you dont believe i CAN have one?
i know im not really good enough to have a girlfriend, but doesnt mean i CANT.
(no offence to anyone, just ranting)

the geog test ended up as a open-book test... THANKS EILEEN ^^
Wonder why does Mr Lau let us bully him so much...

Gratz to guzheng getting gold again~

peace~


-8:40 PM

well im back... in the middle of hell. sec 4 sux.. =X SO MUCH HOMEWORK... not that i do any of it away.. gratz to guzheng getting gold for SYF. hahas...

i've been thinking alot lately...im just too useless aint i...

6-0 thrash at P.E cos im a lousy keeper...

broke up with my girl friend 1 week ago...

haizz...

why must everything i do be so wrong?

this i cant understand...


-3:12 PM

haiz. its all pangya these days... pretty darn boring... hope can get those stupid dreams outta my head...


-3:50 PM

Cherry Filter's Flying Duck. Man her band so rawks. audition ppl would noe this song. Cherry Filter - Flying Duck 158Bpm



-6:21 PM

work is so tiring... bleh... worked as part-time for my dad giving out flyers at the ferry terminal nex to vivo city. 3 days of complete tired ness n boredom.


-2:13 PM

DotA song. really LOL. Turn up the volume to here the heroes' voices



-10:39 PM

New Blog... bleh. Like the songs =p


-9:37 AM

Weeeee. Pangya Season 3 in japan!!! so fun. trailer vid

holidays dam sien lor... nothing to do.


-6:37 PM

Appearance
I am quite tall.I don't think I am handsome.I have scars.I wear glasses.I am sooo skinny -_-"I look sleepy and silly all the time.My left eye is slightly higher than my right. O.o"
Family, Home Life
I like my mom.I rarely talk to my dad.I am still living with my grandparents.I love my grandma's cooking. =/
School/Work
I am a big slacker in school.I can only study if a girl encourage me to.I skipped class for Pangya countless time.I studied in a sucky school where there are no girls worth oogling at. =XI work for myself.
Embarrassment
I slept through my Physics EndOfYear paper during secondary three. (lucky A though)I wore a shirt with the side totally ripped open to buy lunch before.Accidentally drank water out of a bottle owned by a girl I had crush on. *blush*Got slapped in public by my dad for nothing(Sheesh).
Travelling
I've not been to anywhere further than Taiwan.My first flying exprience is a flight to Taiwan.I never boarded a flight after that O.oI want to go to Japan =(I want to visit my friends in Austrailia! RAWR!
Experience
I had dreams that really happened in real life after a short while.I have gotten myself lost while walking.I had depression before.I got hit at the groin before, don't ask. :PI had a online relationship before.I had candle wax sprayed into my right eye before.I cheated a few items and some feeling off guys while playing girl character in Maple Story. xDI met many internet friends in real life. <3 Maple and Audition's h0rniiegurl Pangya's Xychros,Pika,Craving
Relationships
I am single and desperate.I miss nobody.I am ready to love again...My first relationship is currently my last I had before.I sucks at handling break up.I have failed to confess to many girls whom I have feelings for.I fell for other people's girlfriend before.
Sexuality
Classified! xD
Honesty/Crime
I stolen.I lied alot.I have broken promises.I have involved in fight during my secondary school years.I had dirty thoughts about a girl before. >.> *blush*I cheated on a snooker game before(By pretending I didn't commit a foul when I did and my opponent turned his back on me).
Drugs/Alcohol
I don't drink.Most I had was a big bottle of Tiger Beer.I don't do drugs either. Yet
Death/Suicide
I am afraid of pain but not death so shoot me in the head to make sure I am really dead. :PI had sucidal thoughts before.
Materialism
I don't like wearing branded stuff.I don't like wearing watches.I used to see branded stuff as cool.I used to think paying more for branded items is cooler.I wasted alot of money on Pangya cards ._.I spend mostly on myself. (Selfish me =o)
Politics/Social Attitudes
I don't give a damn about politics.I will vote but I don't intend to vote for anybody so I'll just spoil my voting ticket.I believe most politicians are up there doing nothing.And half of them has less IQ than a parrot.I hate hypocritical people.I dislike smokers who puff away without thinking what other thinks.I like being polite... at times.
Random
I LOVE SPEED.Salt and Pepper over Ketchup/Chilli sauce anytime.Chicken and Duck is my favorite meat.Coffee is my favorite drink! *Addicted to caffine*I always play computer while watching TV.I always tell myself '5 Minutes more' when I wake up. -_-zZZI am boring most of the time because I rarely talk.I love cars. =x Gimme my 180sx!I love guns and wish to own a handgun in the future.I can remember girls' birthday pretty well. Unfortunately not so good for the guys. xDI like to personalize my items so that I can look different from others.I went for 36 hours straight on Pangya before.I love Time Crisis series! =xFinally, I sucks, so does you if you think alike. MUAHAHAHA =x


-5:55 PM

im back... but who knows how long this time. I'm converting this into a game blog as stated in my taggy. dam busy working on my videos. I've finished mine and working on my guild's one now. the vid can be located ontop. Enjoy ^^


-11:27 PM

Wow... My blog went dead... i;m here to kick it back to life!!! Dunno how long it will last this time though...
Based this blogskin on a movie i just watched... Final Fantasy XII : Advent Children. The graphics are like, insanely good...
Another movie, disney channel original, High School Musical!! The singing was great, and the storyline is good too... Haizz, i wan sing like them!!! so good voices n songs...

New term of school. Immediately, the amount of work hits us like a sledgehammer... Nono, more like an avalanche.
Eng: MoulinRouge storyline, compo draft & storyline...
Chi: Nothing. YET.
E&A maths : Tonnes of heymath assignments...
Chem: we got a new teacher! Ms Prudence Lim... Gives us tonnes of "quick check" to practice on lol...
Phy: Many practicals to do and a worksheet on vectors...
Geog: River Nile n 3 Gorges Dam group project. about 12 pages of workbook exercises.
Hist: A BIG mindmap on the Weimar Republic
SS: Service learning project. Worksheet on conflict

Doesn't look good for me...

I think i'm getting fitter... I stay back after school for an hour or 2 of soccer, and now i can go 1 hour without rest. But im still a weak guy lol...

That's that. Nothing more to say. about school. things in my mind, thats a whole diff story... but, i wont betray my own secrets... :p. want to know wads in my mind, come look for me!


-1:43 PM

Somehow, someway, 3Grace has dropped from exciting n fun class to dull and boring... Wad happened? People crying... Long faces... Cant absorb anything in class... Can anybody tell me wads going on?


-8:45 PM

The human mind is possibly the most complex thing in this universe... How i wish someone cuold help me interpret my thoughts and feelings, cause im lost in my thoughts...

Nowadays, when i lay on my bed thinking, i fnid that im thinking about nothing. After much soul searching and thinking, i found out i gained and lost something.

I gained too much stress... I can't think straight. My father doesn't allow me to play. And playing is my only way to relieve stress now. So i play at the LAN shop near my house. Then he scolds me for playing all the time n not studying. But who's fault izzit in the first place?

The thing i lost is a trusted friend in 2h... No, not that. I lost the only friend that trusted me in 2h... I can only blame myself... I go tell her i like her, then she starts avoiding me... Izzit because im not handsome or anything? Do girls only look out for looks? If so, that means i never will find a girl friend huh...


-10:51 AM

Its recess now so i cant type much... Its so long since posted, and everyone seems to post regularly, why couldn't i? No com at home tts why...
I start to dread p.e. now. We have a new teacher(tts good) that teaches us how to dance (tts bad) We learning salsa now. I think i got the hang of it, but i dont like my partner... Janelle go switch with ohp... Nevermind lars... awhile only...
Saamann come back liao, the class getting livelier, turns out she broke her hand while jumping the trampoline... and now her parents dun want her go gym liaozz. so sad.. Right hand too, i dunno wad i'll do if i broke my right hand, not being able to play com...


-12:40 AM

Man its so long since i blogged...
Yesterday's jogathon was like, wtf... so super boring...
things didnt start out well enough. at school, we sat at assembly ground 4 45 mins waiting for the bus. By the time we reached, everybody got too bored... except for those hpt ppl and shu hui lol.
Then after botanical gardens, we left for lunch, which was kfc. Then we left for macritchie. Me Eugene Perh Daryl and Irvin reached there at 1:15. super early. almost no one was there... walked around... and then ppl started walking in. the jogging part was ok, although once i ran the wrong way, and let you qin weixiang and joseph to overtake me. i got top 80. not bad considering i got lost lol...


-12:21 AM

Ugh. The exams are here and i can't really use the com. I have v limitted time here so i type super fast...
V.day is almost here! i still dunno wad to get for her for valentines day. Someone suggested folding hearts, buti dunno anything of that sort, so i stick to the traditional chocolate? lol
I know quite alot of people's blog, but noe one really noe mine lol, but its a good thing, right?
Today's eng & social studies paper was quite easy, but im only saying that becuz i finish fast and never really elaborate haha...
I have lost my inspiration. My create-a-book thing is stuck at 11 chapters 6340 words... I NEED HELP. we are like supposed to hand in in a months time loh...


-10:10 PM

Weee. Its almost chinese new year. I'm STILL snowed under by homework... At least i got some stuff done. I'm about finished with my create-a-book thing (4600 words),chinese completed in a jiffy, physics and chem copied, and flew threw geog. I still think i'm gonna fail ss/history this year...
Todae there was the cny celebrations in school. kinda lame if you ask me. the home period was kinda nice. we got Ms Lem to bring yu shen to class, so we can "lao yu shen". It kinda tastes disgusting. We threw all the food together and shared everything. I brought cheezels and potato chips, and they were nowhere to be seen 5 mins later.
Afterwards, we played a game where the loser has to do something the class wants him/her to do. Rachel and Benjamin had to drink coke with their hands interwined, Eileen had to feed jiahao... it was ubber funny. Then the rules changed, the loser had to drink a cup of coke which had many different snacks poured inside. DISGUSTING... and, knowing my luck, i was sure to kena. And i kena'd. It tasted ubber disgusting, but tasty in a weird sorta way. I think i still have some of that pineapple tart stuck to my teeth...
CNY performances were lame beyond lame. The only fun things were to watch jiahao get raped by urvin and gang over n over n over... The dance was also not that bad... (im biased...)


-11:47 PM

The camp was amazing, even though alot of the guys say its not so great...
I shall type it out (even though its past by 10 days or so)

Day 1:
Arrived early by 10 mins, caught up with friends at canteen... I was thinking : oh no not another camp... Line up, briefing.... FINALLY we got on the bus and was leaving! The htp,(Zhen Hui, Tricia, Annette and Lip Kai), as always, started on cheering and trying to get our spirits up. didnt really work though... U had to commend their efforts... We arrived! Still feeling bored...
After MORE briefing, it was activity time! 1st up for us was Abseiling. You have to admit it was very scary... Wei Xiang "volunteered" to go up first, and everyone was at the edge of their seats... Then it was me!!! I was terrified. I slipped on the first step, how embarassing... Then i heard the cheering, and continued on...
2nd activity, the Zipline! It looked way fun but many ppl were scared. Wei Xiang "volunteered" again, and off he went! He overshot the ladder and poor angelyn (the hpt) had to rope him in. I think it has something to do with being heavy... I hung around trying to get a helmet and when it came, i ran up to the instructor guy. From up there, it was more scary than fun... The cable made such loud and irritating noises, and the dumbell u had to sit on hurt my butt :( But it was over! It was a great experience...
Dinner, and campfire prep. and supper, and debfrief, and return to bunks.... We couldnt hav any sleep. The 3A guys where ambushing ppl, you qin and the others were cracking too many jokes, and it was boiling hot in there... Still managed to sleep for 2 hours, and left to brush teeth at 4.45a.m.

Day 2:
Breakfast, and hurray the 3rd activity : Multi-Line Traverse. It was way too scary. 2 ppl on a cable each with no support other than themselves have to walk a long distance. I didnt volunteer. Only 2 pairs went up though... Jiahao&Phillip ; Pinye&Sirong (i think).
4th activity ; similiar, but this tym its solo and u have ropes to hold on to. Another hpt person, Li Ting, arrived and joined us! The Fun never ends, i guess... I was shaking throughout the whole distance, but at least i made it!
Lunch and 5th activity : RAFTING!!! A super fun activity! We had 2 barrels and 4 PVC pipes to make a raft that could survive the ocean. We split into 2 grounps and started building! I tried to help out by tightening the ropes, but i wasnt really that much of a help anyways... Finally, with the raft complete, we hit the ocean! My 1st thought was : Argh, my shoes are full of wet sand. That was my 2nd and 3rd thought too... Amazingly, our raft survived! The instructor exclaimed: "This is the first time i see this; raft look like shyt, yet still can survive every thing!" The other team's raft didnt survive though...
6th activity : Kayaking!!! I was a bit nervous, couse i never kayaked before and i wasnt really such a strong guy... I got paired with Yiwei, and we pushed off a.s.a.p. It was soooo fun! except when i got a bit seasick and had to let yiwei pedal on her own. I also accidentaly hit her in the back with my oar a couple of times... Man, i hope she isnt angry... hahazz..
Dinner, campfire prep, and NIGHTWALK!!! I partneredwith Vincent, and off we went... we spotted a couple of hpt ppl on the way, and waved to them. it was more funny than scary... After the campfire, while we are waiting for tricia lipkai and the others to show up, we had some cheers. It was then when i created the 1 cheer that lead into many others. The BILLY BUNGALAH. bahahahaha. Even you qin has to admit that was funny.
Supper, de brief, and we hit the bunks! Most of us immediately fell asleep becuz of yesterday's lack o sleep.

3rd day:
Man... Alot of gr8 activities were on this day! yet it rained heavily. So no log bridge, rockwall, challenge pole and RATS for us... Man i wanted to do the rockwall and challenge pole... SO the whole day was campfire prep and games... We learnt a new cheer/dance : friendship dance! it was quite nice...
CAMPFIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nth much to say on this one. We owned the place man...
At night, we were ambushed by the 3A guys alot. they threw dustpans and water around, but lucky i didnt get any... At about 1:45am. Mr. Clement came in for a spot check, cuz one person lost his handfone! OMG i hope he found it

4th day:
Cleaning up! 3 Grace was supposed to clean the boat shack, and clean it we did! The hpt were getting nuts and were going "Clean the boatshack with 3Grace!Clean the boatshack with 3Grace!Clean the boatshack with 3Grace!Clean the boatshack with 3Grace!Clean the boatshack with 3Grace!" haha... Water was splashed around, and after the amazing cleaning, one hpt guy sprayed the water upwards, so we all saw a rainbow... Some more cheers and more new cheers that came from billy bungalah. For example : the banana bungalah dance. LOL that was funny...
Awards! Our class got the award for best job at cleaning up! and the hpt ppl were going Clean the boatshack with 3Grace!Clean the boatshack with 3Grace!Clean the boatshack with 3Grace!Clean the boatshack with 3Grace!Clean the boatshack with 3Grace! all over again...


It was a wonderful experience. Class spirit was sky high, everyone made new friends.


-10:24 PM

Yeah! I finally got my own blog now... Sorry if I don't really sound right hehe...

Sigh, i never knew Sec 3 would be so, uh, terrifying!!!! A few weeks in and already snowed under by homework... And there's worse... (yes there's worse stuff than homework, suprise suprise)

Our SS/Elective teacher, Mrs. J Lim, is a very unreasonable person... She wants us to do out own notes even BEFORE she starts teaching, and she wants the notes have more info than in the textbook!!! Its an outrage...

Valentine's day is coming, and im not really that excited as last year. Puberty affects the way i think, and i want that to stop! Now i can't even intepret my own feelings... I keep having this feeling that every cute ga i see, I immediately fall in love, WHICH I HOPE ISNT TRUE. Even im not that despo... Another reason is becuz rejection is my greatest fear... Sigh, such a bad time...

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Joseph Tan Choon Wee
born on 6thJuly1991
Ex-NorthLand Primary Student
Presbyterian high school
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